Jan 24, 2011


I have been having a hard time sleeping lately. I want to read a book to help me sleep, but don't want to get hooked on a book and not have time to finish it. I only watch TV on certain nights-when my shows are online or else I would watch them and fall asleep in the middle. If only I could just lay down and fall asleep like I used to. My thoughts take over my head. I'm almost positive it's because all day everyday, even Sundays, I am constantly working on something. Cleaning, cooking, homework, in class, client work, emailing, writing to-do lists... the list goes on and on. So by the time I shut my eyes, I am making more to-do lists and feeling like I am wasting time getting sleep. But I need sleep because the day after a restless night, I am grouchy and just tired. I get dizzy and start to space out when trying to learn and take quizzes. Right now I am dizzy and feel like my head and body are trying to lean to the left and start going in circles, even though i am laying down flat and straight. When will it ever stop!!!! Oh, that's right, April. I am going to need a looooong, tropical vacation when this BYU gig is over and done with. Anyone want to come with?

We had a great lesson in RS yesterday about time management and how not to stress out about to-do lists and not getting everything done. But how do you not stress out if you don't finish things? If they weren't important to finish, why start them? I'm still confused and never asked that question because no one really asks questions in RS. They just comment. I felt like it was a good lesson for me to hear and it was almost made for me because these thoughts and feelings have been consuming my every thought but I still feel like I need answers.

I am learning to say "no" to people when they want to hang out or go get a bite to eat. That's all I can think of to help my stress levels, even though I'm sure I need a lot more help than that. Baby steps I guess.

If any of you have suggestions that help you sleep- without taking melatonin or other drugs..let me know! I usually have to go to bed around 11pm and wake up at 6:30 or 7am.


Laura Hendricks said...

that's the worst! it's such a stressful time for you. maybe don't let yourself do ANYTHING for at least an hour before bed except relax in bed with the light on, talking to drew or something. then maybe when you turn the lights off you will feel like you got thoughts out already. i don't know if that will work or not, just a thought.

kitty said...

so i've been having a hard time sleeping too. my mind goes into creative mode and i can't stop thinking. and then when i do finally sleep i wake up and realize none of the ideas i had that were keeping me up were even good.

it's been going on for a couple weeks.

then brandon remembered he had this weird relaxation cd thing he stole from his friend and so i tried it out. within about 5 minutes of listening to it i fall asleep. I've used it every night for the past week.

sounds weird and hippie, i know. i'll have to burn you a copy so you can try it out.

Ben + Amanda said...

oh, I am so sorry. The end will be here before you know it and you will feel SO GOOD. I was in way over my head with school and felt like I could barely breathe, it's horrible, and then you graduate before you know it! Just hang in there. And just say NO. People will understand.

Elyse said...

I have the same problem! (If you notice, it is 1:50 am when I am making this comment, but I am at work...ha). I hate when I lay down and am so tired and can't do anything but think about what I have to do the next day.